Goodbyes...

Times they are-a-changing....

People change, we move one... but memories linger...

This one was probably penned by me under heavy hormone overload, but hope it strikes a chord...

GOODBYE
Voice that mellowed my hardened soul
Wistful eyes that probed me innocently
Twinkling laughter that gave me hope
Tender hands I longed to hold.

You touched my life like no one before
I began to love life with new fervor
Appreciate sentiments, cherish memories
Caress dreams, rekindle hopes.

But now as I put pen to paper
Hoping to stream out some sensible lyrics about you
Surprisingly, my hands waver...
How do I describe an angel?
How do I bid good bye?
So many things to say, so little time.

How do I pour my heart onto this paper so fast?
This paper is not you- 
Will our timeless conversations simply vanish into the past?
It is a barrage of emotions- all of them so true.

Wish our lovely moments would stretch on till eternity
That your ethereal voice woke me once more,
That complete faith in each other,
Those intimate talks on the phone.

Yet we bid our good byes
and march forth to fulfill our dreams
Hoping our ways cross once more. 
So, for all the vivid memories
I strive for an imperfect poem 
Dedicated to the perfect moments we shared.

Debut

Ok, for my very first blog entry, I decided to take a leaf out of my blog's name- Figure me out.

Very often, we are helpless and can only hope the other person can read between the lines and figure out what's happening. After all, to quote Churchill, we are all riddles wrapped in a mystery inside an enigma. Until of course, the right person comes along and untangles it all.

Wrote this poem when I was 16. Only one person was meant to figure it out... and she ultimately did!

Figure Me Out

Fooled by my carefree ways,
Casual words, lazy stares?
Yeah, I’m used to having my own way,
I get what I want… hell may care!

Dulcet eyes that never falter,
Those ruthless words… never minced,
That easy smile, says it all,
I’m the one you’re looking for.

So what if I say that everything’s fake,
You know me by name, but do you know me?

Razor-sharp words shield a wounded core,
That smile belies a conflict within.
Toughness that conceals my longing for you,
You think you know me? Well, you don’t.

This world of make-believe saps my strength away,
This veil of pretense is drowning me instead,
This veneer of detachment might slip before long,
Is there any place where I can belong?
Have I not the right to bleed?
Tongues lash out, yet the silence screams.

Please hear what I leave unsaid,
Scrape the surface and I’m no longer there,
Beneath a garb lies a heart that beats,
Does it beat for you?
I’d never reveal,
And, you would never know.

Undercurrents of despair will wash me ashore
Back to reality-
To face it all once more.
Everything will pass
Only memories will lurk;
Of silent hopes and unspoken dreams
Only to be fantasized-
Never to be lived.